And there we are, another week has passed since I blogged, so I’m now 3/18 treatments of the current plan (before I get scanned, and we see if this drug is doing anything, and if it is, we keep going).


So, still making sure I get out for that little walk every day (Fri/Sat – with a ‘Bear Hug‘ in the post) – some days it’s 1500 steps, some it’s more … all feels very short compared the 8+ miles used to do on hikes, but I guess that’s where we are now!


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Went for lunch, a short walk, and a socially distanced oat milk hot chocolate at @thegherkinlevenshulme #BusyLivingWithMets

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Still going to bed pretty early, and knocking myself out with morphine and zopiclone!


And there we are, another treatment day … arrived around 10.30am, called in for chair around 11am (with my Stage 4 Deserves More mask):


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We’re on #WaitingRoomFeet – bloods have gone off – hopefully back around 12.30 … with my @stage4deservesmore mask – and yes antibiotics are coming for the toe!! #BusyLivingWithMets

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As I remember saying about primary chemotherapy – it’s not the big vomiting, etc. that the media shows you – but a myriad of small side effects, any of which are irritating on their own, but together, and knowing that it’s long term, make them hard to try and deal with!


Another soggy day, but still popped out for a walk, once my Asda delivery had arrived/been put away – but mostly relaxed:


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Got that little walk in – found my cycling waterproof trousers … only 0.6 but anyways … and more post 😉

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Woke to the news that Sarah Harding (Girls Aloud) has advanced (aka metastatic, incurable) cancer – sorry she got forced to share the news, and here’s to good treatments and support, as for all of us:

I had some more lovely postBetty’s Fat Rascals, and ‘permission to rest’.. went out for another little walk – and also was on BBC Radio 4 – World At One (again talking about cancer/COVID):

This was also ‘day 17’ post my first chemo of this set … and in the shower this morning as I ran my hands through my hair, I was left with quite a lot of hair on my hands … I may be lucky it may just be thinning, or it may be the start of it coming out… who knows. Another thing to be patient about!

I also had a go at Maggie’s relaxation session via Zoom – others in the group said that Lisa’s voice went faint at one point – maybe I’d fallen asleep in that LOL!


Had a little bit of energy today, so sorted out some washing, and some other bits/pieces of housework (my cleaner is still not well ? ) before heading out for a walk with a friend, and back for a Zoom with another friend, and making some cheese sauce:


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Having a bit of company makes it easier to walk a little further. #BusyLivingWithMets #paclitaxel

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A day which feels like it’s got quite a lot in it, considering … a conversation with occupational health (she is very clear am not currently fit for work (aside from bits/pieces I might want to do), and will be signed off beyond my current date of 11th Sept – which is no big surprise to anyone, and wants to talk again in 6-8 weeks and see if have settled into a routine with the chemo); then another 4000 step walk, then it was time for counselling (where I was tired, and slurring somewhat), where we talked about Maslow’s hierarchy of needs, and that focusing on the bottom steps is where I’m at at the moment:

After the District Nurse had visited, and I’d sorted out a couple of bits and pieces, I was in bed by 6pm – and started watching The Umbrella Academy which am enjoying, but fell asleep in the middle – had set an alarm to take my last set of meds, and then crashed out again til about 8.30am 🙂


Got up early ready to have boiler serviced, but think they have forgotten me … and as I’m heading to my bubble family to enjoy Greenbelt, ah well, have to rearrange! Started the day for #GB20 #WildAtHome with traditional bacon sandwich:


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It’s #GB20 #WildAtHome bacon sarnie for breakfast …

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And getting prepared for hair loss (thank you Sarah):

And rather gutted to hear (but also amazed at all he managed to achieve with Stage IV cancer – though hope that doesn’t put pressure on the rest of us) – still struggle with the fighter narrative though – must listen to Andrew’s thoughts on this for BBC:


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It is with immeasurable grief that we confirm the passing of Chadwick Boseman.? ? Chadwick was diagnosed with stage III colon cancer in 2016, and battled with it these last 4 years as it progressed to stage IV. ? ? A true fighter, Chadwick persevered through it all, and brought you many of the films you have come to love so much. From Marshall to Da 5 Bloods, August Wilson’s Ma Rainey’s Black Bottom and several more, all were filmed during and between countless surgeries and chemotherapy. ? ? It was the honor of his career to bring King T’Challa to life in Black Panther. ? ? He died in his home, with his wife and family by his side. ? ? The family thanks you for your love and prayers, and asks that you continue to respect their privacy during this difficult time. ? ? Photo Credit: @samjonespictures

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And remembering that tomorrow is 3 years since I was first diagnosed with primary breast cancer … it has been an exhausting 3 years!

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